Look at this beaut–my bestie on the right and award winning yearbooks in our hands!!! It has been so fun taking part in making this yearbook what it is and I can not wait till next year as I get to stand by this girl’s side and two other amazing gals as head editors!
This past year has been whirlwind of fun and chaos (if there’s such a thing). I’ve laughed. I’ve cried. I’ve set my alarm in the morning for PM instead of AM. I’ve seen how imperfect I am. I’ve seen new characteristics of the Lord that I’ve never noticed before. And I’ve eaten a lot of chicken biscuits.
Probably one of the most memorable and frustrating things this year was running my second half marathon. I killed my first one like a beast but this one was crap. I ran, got hurt, and convinced myself into quitting on mile 10. But as I walked/ran/limped towards mile 10, a song on my playlist happened to come on that reminded me the Lord gives me strength. Then my phone exploded with good luck texts from friends…so I told myself to suck it up cause I am finishing.
Perseverance is one of the millions of lessons I have learned this year. Though running, school, friendships and life, I have had to choose multiple times whether or not to keep going.
So what am I suppose to do? What are we to do? How do we keep going when we are tired and afraid? What do we do when the voice in our head is yelling that WE ARE NEVER GOING TO MAKE IT? How do we drag ourselves when our brain is telling us youaredumbandyouwillneversurviveandnoonecaresanditistimeyoustop?
The first thing you do is remove your brain and put it in your closet. Stuff it somewhere and let it rant till it has nothing else to say. You may still hear the dumb things it tells you but at least it’s in your closet. By taking it out of your head, its voice is muffled allowing you to think clearly.
My go to this year has been Psalm 62–GOOD STUFF.
“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken…They fully intend to topple him from his lofty place; they take delight in lies. With their mouths they bless, but in their hearts they curse.” Psalm 62:1-2,4
“They” that “fully intend to topple him” would have to be AP World and my 5 thousands other things to do. I made AP World the most stressful thing ever when it wasn’t even that hard. But it has been awesome because when it is toppling me, God alone is my rock and my salvation.
“One thing God has spoken, two things I have heard: that you, O God, are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving.” Psalm 62:11-12
The amount of times I have had to close my eyes and repeatedly say this verse is sweetly numerous. God You are strong. Lord You are loving. When I choose to keep going, I choose to trust God… trust Him to guide me when I doubt, to protect me when in danger, to supply me when in need and to strengthen me when I am weak.
When I put my self centered ways aside and my brain in the closet, I rode on the Lord’s back. And that is how I survived sophomore year. And if I have learned this much (and much more this year), then bring on junior year!!!